this story confirms my dreams. (which will have to be another journal entry. its too late and im sleepy)
I go into the gas station.
Im awake and upy. Too upy cause its 2 in the morning. so why was i in a "cherry" mood. I dont know.
but i was.
I get a soda.
see the guy over the counter and say hey man.
He looks pale , skinny, and even though i would hate to say it. the boi looks well - HIV postive (dont know an other way to say it). at the very least, its fair to say the boi is not getting enough protein in his daily diet.
but i digress.
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*from this point I will now go into third person view as i saw the guy* not a dream.. this actually happened.*
I say, " Hey! (as i clinch my eyes to see his name tag) ROSS!, i had an idea. i should go to a 3rd world country, and take 500 dollars for five days with me. See how much i can stretch it out to. Hell, i bet i would probably live like a king.
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Ross reponds: "yeah man.. (sigh) When my dad died , he left me 23 thousand dollars. I never did anything with it because i was thinking about my future. "he smacks his lips" MANNN!!! I shoulda went. Dude, I've always wanted to do that. I always kinda wanted to use some of the money to travel, because i truley believe my dad would have wanted me to do that. But i didnt, and now i probably wont becuase my girlfriend got knocked up and its my child and im suppose to look toward the future. Dont get me wrong I love my child, but *Huff* sometimes you just wonder."
i saw that his eye's were glassy. He was saying ALL this while at the same time he continued to scan , collect my money, give me exact change, and he does this all as almost automatic and mechanicly. At the same time he spills his soul; he talke about his lost dream. He explains the true emotion and thoughts in his head. He says it all with this certain emotion.
and see him and i stared at him.............
i said. Ross, its was nice meeting you man. My name is Miguel. He looks like he snaps back to reality, he smiles. and then again. there he was..
back to normal.. his eye's suddently dryed back to normal. and he said. Hey im ross. he laughed as i walked away. Like i was a joke.
I dont know whats more ironic.